Where do I go from here…

First let me say my son is a generous and very given person, by nature.  Walking around Manhattan can be very expensive since he wants to give money every pan handler (usually its my money).  He once offered his un eaten portion of his sandwich.  My wife and I want him to keep that spirit of goodness and decided last year that we’d save all our change for a year and during Christmas holiday.  He would he could use half to get our gifts, and the other half he would donate to a local charity.

It was decided that he would personally get some toys for less fortunate children.  We ended up choosing New York Foundling, which is where I happened to have been adopted from.  He went with my wife out shopping and purchased fifty dollars of assorted toys.

The week before Christmas he and The Wife went to New York Foundling located on 17th and 6th Ave to drop the gifts off.  When i got home from work my wife said he was slightly disappointed since all he was able to do was drop it off at the front desk.  My little man wanted to give the gift out to the kids himself.

Fast forward to this past week.  My wife received an email from New York Foundling, thanking my son for his generosity, along with a picture of children holding gifts received vía donations.

While the point of donating is to show my son the ways of giving back or helping others, it pained me to see the pictured attached with the email.  Though it was filled with happy and smiling children, it hurts to know that these kids have uncertain future ahead of them.  I don’t know the statistics for children who are up for adoption, or how many actually get placed in welcoming homes, but it hurt to see that some of those children are about my sons age (9 years old).  I know that it is often said that older they are, the less likely hood they are of being adopted.

So here I am, unsure of what to do? While I personally don’t want any more children of my own the thought of changing diaper is not what I see in my future, though adopting an older child has crossed my mind. This leaves me in the middle of a bind.  While many will say, “Where there is a will, there’s a way”, but reality is, that while my change of career has brought me tons of joy it has come with a finacial sacrifice.  I’m currently not making anyway near what i was making before.  I know that to even think of adopting I would have to think about how I’m doing financially first. Wondering where do I go from here…
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HOPE,FAITH, CHANCE

As an adult I’ve gotten very comfortable with sharing the fact that I’m adopted.  I think it helps people get a better idea of why I feel the way I do about life in general. 

Last year one of my kids guardian who happens to be her aunt with no kids of her own, told me her sister is pregnant.  Mind you she is raising her sister’s daughter and son already.  My response was, “your going to have another child”.  I don’t think that was her first thought, though.  I understood this and honestly, it makes sense.  She was at the end of the day in a situation not of her making.  I appluad her for not only stepping in but making personal sacrifices. 

Right before Christmas break she stopped me to ask how my meeting with my biological sister went.  I told her great and how we’re constantly chatting and texting.  She went on to thank me saying that I helped her make the decision of taking responsibilty for the third sibling.  But I don’t deserve a thank you. I should thank her, for her life commitment to the three children.  She could have easily said no and I nor anyone could fault her. Yet, she decided it was important to keep this family together.  That she will be there when these children need a shoulder to cry on.  To be up in the middle of the night when they can not sleep.  To read the same story one hundred times because they just can’t get enough of it.  That no matter how tired she is, she will get them prepared for school.  She, will put everything else on the back burner simply because these three children need just a little more from her.

These children, of which at one point I was also one, have no choice on where we end up.  All we want is to have some one put their HOPE and FAITH in us, give us a CHANCE, to be.  

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I took this while at South street Seaport.  I didn’t really like it at first but it when i went to delete it realized I did like it!

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Thank you!

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The last day of the year 2011, at 6:30am my maternal grandfather past away. I’ve only seen or spoken to him a hand full of times since connecting with my biological family.  I can’t say I knew him well, but he just like my adoptive parents left Cuba with kids in tow to find a better life for them.  So, I give thanks to him for making that choice.  Since had he not made that choice I would not be here.  This is my little way of saying Thank you Grand Pa!

In the pic from left to right, my little brother, myself, Grand Pa, and latest and newest addition my little sister.

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